I haven’t posted much this month. A lot has been happening in my life. It’s a mixture of good and bad.
Roughly three weeks ago I had an epiphany. I don’t want to go back to college to finish my degree in Accountancy. It was never my choice to take it up but I endured more or less four years of it (it’s a five-year course in my college). I also had a partial scholarship, so I couldn’t pass up the opportunity. It was a great school that helped me a lot to boost my self-esteem. But I want to be a book blogger.
My love has and will always be books. I started reading when I was in first grade. The library in St. Scholastica’s Academy of Marikina was magical. There were little shelves filled with fairytale books, pillows and stuff toys scattered across the carpeted floor. I’m not sure if that’s still the case but that was a memory I will treasure forever. I admit that my reading took a hiatus when I reached fifth grade (I transferred schools) until freshmen year. Then, I became addicted to Twilight and the rest is history.
I started writing fanfictions too, but I have a hard time finishing it. I have so many ideas for a story but I always fail to commit. I discovered the wonders of ebooks and ARCs… which is a good thing because paperback are too damn expensive. Writing reviews gave me so much joy. I love expressing my love for books. It’s also a good feeling to help authors in supporting and promoting their books.
Two weeks ago my younger brother was rushed to the hospital. He puked twice and complains about stomach aches. The doctor told us he needs to undergo an operation to remove his appendix. It was not ruptured yet but it’s only a matter of time. Three days later, he was fit to go home. The hospital bill racked up to Php 83k. We have made a down payment of Php 10k a day before and my mother’s health insurance (Philhealth) covered Php 24k only. We only managed Php 34k that night and, thankfully, two of the doctors granted our request for promissory note. We have to pay the remaining balance of Php 15k until August 15.
Almost all my saving for school is gone. I felt like my world was crashing down (dramatic, I know). Just when I finally realize what I want to do with my life, I’m back to square one. I can’t leave a stable job when we’re facing a financial crisis. I have to put on hold what I want. Again. I thought that by August I’ll be blogging about books like a mad person. I want to have a very active blog, but I can’t do that anymore.
I’m not giving up reading and blogging books. I think I’ll go mad if I did. I can post five times in a week but no promises. I hope you guys can understand.